Of all things

Last night I woke up with the wooorrsttt toothache! My bottom wisdom tooth is impacted - it never came out fully. So every now and then food will get stuck in there and create an infection. Well man oh man did it ever hit. It felt like I got socked in the face with a bat! I fortunately got in with my dentist early this am and he cleaned it all out and shaved a part of my top wisdom tooth down because when I closed my mouth it would jab the lower gum. Ouch! I have to get some antibiotics and just hopefully it will start to heal soon. Last thing I need to be dealing with!

So I am 4 weeks 5 days today. The doomsday. I hope I can make it to my 1st ultrasound on Tuesday. This weekend will be interesting for sure since I never really pass the 5 week mark. Except for once.
One day at a time here. Tomorrow is my 5th beta test. Praying for high numbers!

Insurance shmimshurance

I just got off the phone with my Blood specialist dr. who was to try and build a case for me to submit to my insurance to see if they will cover the IVIg treatments I need to help bring down my high TNF. Guess my results didn't provide much of a case because they just informed me that my insurance will not cover it.

  Warning: I am about to use a lot of curse words after this message.

Why the FUCK is it acceptable that insurance companies feel infertility is not a medical necessity!? I have serious fucking issues going on that can lead to a plethora of other serious medical issues beyond infertility - but throw that fucking word in the mix and it's an instant NOPE. Sorry bout your bad luck there, missy!

  So smokers and fucking people who ate krispy kreme donuts all of their life can get coverage for their poor health conditions after their poor life choices - but a woman who is trying to have a baby but can't because her body is being an asshole cannot?!? I simply do not get it!! I have 3 blood clotting factors!! I have a hyper-immune system that is being triggered by SOMETHING going on internally - that is also attacking my embryos! But nope - not important apparently!!

I fucking hate this stupid system. It doesn't give a shit about you. I put so much money out of my pay for insurance - and when I really need it - I'm denied!!! Fuck that shit.


end rant.

Ok I'm sorry I got a little foul mouthed there. I am just so irritated at this entire situation! I feel I cannot catch a friggen break here!! I'm about ready to throw in the damn towel and just go through life childless because I can't afford to treat my internal issues to have one.

Thanks a lot, health system! Assholes.