Still not sure when/if I ovulated this month which is a sucky feeling because I have no clue if the things I am doing are timed accordingly. The only time this has happened was in November 2015 - and funny enough - I got pregnant that cycle. So perhaps just going with the flow and not so focused on how many days past ovulation I am might be a good thing. Less stress and worry perhaps? Not being like "I'm 11dpo...I should be seeing something on these tests by now!!" haha! This month I just have to really wait and see. Who knows. I am so tired of dealing with all of this anyway, that I am at the point of whatever.
Another thing I have decided is that if this doesn't happen again this month - next month I am not going to do intralipids at ovulation. I don't know how that will play out - but I cannot keep throwing down $450 for a) something I cannot time accurately enough and b) something I cannot afford to do on a monthly basis when I am not getting pregnant anyway. If I could have a nurse on standby it would be one thing - but I HAD to get my intralipids done on Friday because they don't do late visits, or short notice visits. And weekend visits cost extra. So I was forced to do this on a friday when I wasn't even sure when I was going to O this month. And it's only effective for 2 days before ovulation. I just can't keep taking chances like that financially. This month - if I didn't ovulate over the weekend - that was $450 down the toilet again for nothing. And if I didn't get pregnant this month - still $450 down the toilet. It's just too much. So I have decided I will just schedule an intralipid shot if I get a positive pregnancy test and hopefully that will be effective enough. But who knows anymore. I just can't keep digging myself further into debt for nothing.
All of this has become such a pain in the ass. I once thought having a baby, and trying for a baby was going to be so much fun and so exciting! I never thought in my wildest dreams I would be living this nightmare for 2 years now. And I don't feel any closer to an end than I was 2 years ago. :(
Showing posts with label intralipids. Show all posts
Showing posts with label intralipids. Show all posts
Wednesday, October 12, 2016
Monday, October 3, 2016
Gearing up again
I have reached cycle day 9 and this weekend we will start trying again. It's crazy how fast time flies. I just got back from a pre-anniversary weekend getaway at a family friends cabin. Just me and the husband and our dog Bailey. It was a perfect getaway. Surrounded by trees - no one around. Just us and nature. It was so peaceful. In the mornings, we'd sit on the porch and watch the deer play and graze right in front of us! It was almost out of a storybook. So yeah, needless to say it was very nice and much needed.
Now I am back to the grind and prepping to start up again this month. I have weaned myself off steroids and will be off of them for a solid week until I start up again around ovulation. That will give my body a little break in between. I've been on the plaquenil now for a little over 2 months now. I am really hoping it's taking effect in my system. They say it can take up to 3 months for it to be at it's strongest...but I hope this is still enough time to make a difference. I am a small person, so hopefully that will work to my advantage.
I will be doing another course of intralipids again this month - so I have to obviously time ovulation accordingly again. I will start testing the OPK's on thursday. The last cycle ended so weird, and my period was just bizarre - so I hope I can predict everything ok this cycle - and that things have sorted themselves out down there. It's hard to predict ovulation when you have wonky cycles sometimes.
Anyway, so here we go again. I am bracing myself for another very long two/three weeks. I am going to try not to stress, although I said that last month and by the end of it all - I completely disregarded that rule. It's hard sometimes to not get all worked up when you are trying so hard to make something work, and it doesn't. So I will just take things one step at a time and see where the road leads this time. Will update when I know more. :)
Now I am back to the grind and prepping to start up again this month. I have weaned myself off steroids and will be off of them for a solid week until I start up again around ovulation. That will give my body a little break in between. I've been on the plaquenil now for a little over 2 months now. I am really hoping it's taking effect in my system. They say it can take up to 3 months for it to be at it's strongest...but I hope this is still enough time to make a difference. I am a small person, so hopefully that will work to my advantage.
I will be doing another course of intralipids again this month - so I have to obviously time ovulation accordingly again. I will start testing the OPK's on thursday. The last cycle ended so weird, and my period was just bizarre - so I hope I can predict everything ok this cycle - and that things have sorted themselves out down there. It's hard to predict ovulation when you have wonky cycles sometimes.
Anyway, so here we go again. I am bracing myself for another very long two/three weeks. I am going to try not to stress, although I said that last month and by the end of it all - I completely disregarded that rule. It's hard sometimes to not get all worked up when you are trying so hard to make something work, and it doesn't. So I will just take things one step at a time and see where the road leads this time. Will update when I know more. :)
Monday, August 29, 2016
Quite a cocktail list
***update: Just spoke with my doctor and she feels I only need 2 intralipid shots this cycle, the first to be a day before ovulation. So I won't be having 3 shots starting thurs. Which is fine by me cause that saves me $$. Now I just need to pinpoint when the hell I am going to ovulate so I can get the shot the day before. THAT is going to be a task. ugh***
I am really trying to pull out all of the stops here for this cycle. I think I have done everything known to man to try and make this work. I just scheduled my first of perhaps 3 intralipid shots. I will get the first round this thursday. Then I will wait again do the second round right before ovulation. This is crucial because is has to be timed accordingly - which will be very hard because I only can tell AFTER I ovulated. So I am basing everything just on my past cycles which day I think I should ovulate. As well as temping, monitoring my CM, and all that jazz as well.
I don't trust ovulation predictors. I don't know if it's because I have a long LH surge but they never worked for me. I would get days of positives. So I don't go by those. So hopefully I can peg this just right so it is most effective.
So far to make this work I have done:
Lit therapy,
Intralipids,
Hydroxychloroquine,
Predisone (steroids)
Lovenox
Baby aspirin
Omega 3 supplements
Pine bark
Reversatrol
Metanx (folate)
Prenatals
Vit D
Vit E
Tumeric
EGCg green tea extract
progesterone
And I have excluded endometriosis as being the culprit.
The only thing I haven't done is the IVIg.
I've been through the ringer these past couple of years...and I am hoping everything I am doing will be enough to finally have my baby. The only thing that will prevent it now is either my TNF still won't budge coming down, or my eggs are not viable. Which scares the shit out of me.
But all I can do is try. And I can be comforted knowing I am doing everything within my power right now. If I miscarry again, I will give it another try again. I feel I can do this....I feel this will happen. I have to continue to be patient. I have to continue to give it time. And I have to continue to tell myself, it's not my fault. I am trying..and that's all I can do.
I am really trying to pull out all of the stops here for this cycle. I think I have done everything known to man to try and make this work. I just scheduled my first of perhaps 3 intralipid shots. I will get the first round this thursday. Then I will wait again do the second round right before ovulation. This is crucial because is has to be timed accordingly - which will be very hard because I only can tell AFTER I ovulated. So I am basing everything just on my past cycles which day I think I should ovulate. As well as temping, monitoring my CM, and all that jazz as well.
I don't trust ovulation predictors. I don't know if it's because I have a long LH surge but they never worked for me. I would get days of positives. So I don't go by those. So hopefully I can peg this just right so it is most effective.
So far to make this work I have done:
Lit therapy,
Intralipids,
Hydroxychloroquine,
Predisone (steroids)
Lovenox
Baby aspirin
Omega 3 supplements
Pine bark
Reversatrol
Metanx (folate)
Prenatals
Vit D
Vit E
Tumeric
EGCg green tea extract
progesterone
And I have excluded endometriosis as being the culprit.
The only thing I haven't done is the IVIg.
I've been through the ringer these past couple of years...and I am hoping everything I am doing will be enough to finally have my baby. The only thing that will prevent it now is either my TNF still won't budge coming down, or my eggs are not viable. Which scares the shit out of me.
But all I can do is try. And I can be comforted knowing I am doing everything within my power right now. If I miscarry again, I will give it another try again. I feel I can do this....I feel this will happen. I have to continue to be patient. I have to continue to give it time. And I have to continue to tell myself, it's not my fault. I am trying..and that's all I can do.
Quite a cocktail list
I am really trying to pull out all of the stops here for this cycle. I think I have done everything known to man to try and make this work. I just scheduled my first of perhaps 3 intralipid shots. I will get the first round this thursday. Then I will wait again do the second round right before ovulation. This is crucial because is has to be timed accordingly - which will be very hard because I only can tell AFTER I ovulated. So I am basing everything just on my past cycles which day I think I should ovulate. As well as temping, monitoring my CM, and all that jazz as well.
I don't trust ovulation predictors. I don't know if it's because I have a long LH surge but they never worked for me. I would get days of positives. So I don't go by those. So hopefully I can peg this just right so it is most effective.
So far to make this work I have done:
Lit therapy,
Intralipids,
Hydroxychloroquine,
Predisone (steroids)
Lovenox
Baby aspirin
Omega 3 supplements
Pine bark
Reversatrol
Metanx (folate)
Prenatals
Vit D
Vit E
Tumeric
EGCg green tea extract
progesterone
And I have excluded endometriosis as being the culprit.
The only thing I haven't done is the IVIg.
I've been through the ringer these past couple of years...and I am hoping everything I am doing will be enough to finally have my baby. The only thing that will prevent it now is either my TNF still won't budge coming down, or my eggs are not viable. Which scares the shit out of me.
But all I can do is try. And I can be comforted knowing I am doing everything within my power right now. If I miscarry again, I will give it another try again. I feel I can do this....I feel this will happen. I have to continue to be patient. I have to continue to give it time. And I have to continue to tell myself, it's not my fault. I am trying..and that's all I can do.
I don't trust ovulation predictors. I don't know if it's because I have a long LH surge but they never worked for me. I would get days of positives. So I don't go by those. So hopefully I can peg this just right so it is most effective.
So far to make this work I have done:
Lit therapy,
Intralipids,
Hydroxychloroquine,
Predisone (steroids)
Lovenox
Baby aspirin
Omega 3 supplements
Pine bark
Reversatrol
Metanx (folate)
Prenatals
Vit D
Vit E
Tumeric
EGCg green tea extract
progesterone
And I have excluded endometriosis as being the culprit.
The only thing I haven't done is the IVIg.
I've been through the ringer these past couple of years...and I am hoping everything I am doing will be enough to finally have my baby. The only thing that will prevent it now is either my TNF still won't budge coming down, or my eggs are not viable. Which scares the shit out of me.
But all I can do is try. And I can be comforted knowing I am doing everything within my power right now. If I miscarry again, I will give it another try again. I feel I can do this....I feel this will happen. I have to continue to be patient. I have to continue to give it time. And I have to continue to tell myself, it's not my fault. I am trying..and that's all I can do.
Friday, August 26, 2016
Let the games begin...
Aaaannnd we're off! I'm officially on day 1 of my cycle for this month! In two weeks we will start trying again! I'm a big ball of nerves!! I have decided that I think I am going to hold off on retesting my TNF levels. I just don't know if I want to handle the stress of that. I'm thinking that remaining naive may help with the stress levels. Because if I retest and it's not down, then I am going to start stressing even more - which just doesn't help matters at all.
I am also going to discuss with my doctor about doing a few intralipid shots. I should start that asap and do another one upon a positive pregnancy test. Just adding another thing to help calm my immune system. Can't hurt (well it will hurt my wallet) haha. But I will do everything I need to do to get it done.
But yeah.....here we go!
I am also going to discuss with my doctor about doing a few intralipid shots. I should start that asap and do another one upon a positive pregnancy test. Just adding another thing to help calm my immune system. Can't hurt (well it will hurt my wallet) haha. But I will do everything I need to do to get it done.
But yeah.....here we go!
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