I went to the doctor yesterday to discuss what my options were from here. When I walked into her office, she gave me a sad look and said she was sorry. Then from there, she got right down to business and I kind of felt the way she was speaking to me, it was if she is really taking me seriously now. Not to say she didn't before, but this time she was very direct. I think her, being a fertility specialist, letting her patient suffer another miscarriage really got to her. She is supposed to be there to help, and it happened now under her care. I don't think that sat well with her.
So she told me that she re-reviewed my entire file (which was starting to look more like the size of an encyclopedia) and felt she was 90% sure of the cause of all of this. She stated that NK Cells were never tested on me, because she felt that my blood clotting disorders were big enough that with the treatment of Lovenox, that, that would be the cure. She apologized for being wrong, and stated clearly that this is a lot bigger and more serious than that.
NK Cells, aka "Natural Killer Cells" are cells that help fight off infections and cancer type cells in your body. Everyone has them and they typically are a great thing. However, they can formulate in an excessive amount in some women, which in turn, if she gets pregnant, they recognize the embryo as a foreign object and instantly start attacking it. My doctor feels that I could potentially have an increased about of these cells and that is what is happening to me, and would explain why most of my miscarriages happen so early on. My body rejects it before they even realize that this is actually a good thing! Just add it to the list of things that are wrong with me. Well, potentially anyway.
Her being 90% sure is comforting, because there is a cure for this. I will be boosted up with steroids and other hormones to help suppress my immune system so these cells don't go on attack. However, if these results come back normal, and I don't have this issue, then we will most likely have to chalk everything up to simply bad eggs. Which is crazy since I have a great AMH level and my FSH level was great too! I'm only 37, so to have bad egg, after bad egg is a little nuts to fathom. There has to be ONE good egg in there for heavens sake!! I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, eat relatively good. I mean, cmon!!
Also - I saved the gestational sac from my miscarriage when I passed it, and gave it to them to send off for testing. That too will let us know if this was chromosomal or not. If they can hopefully use it and it's a good sample to test on. I will know those results in a couple of weeks.
So now, the gameplan. The NEW gameplan. I have to wait 1 cycle and have a regular period. I cannot get pregnant during this time so I have to be super careful with the husband. After my regular period comes at the end of this cycle, I will then go in for the full immunity panel. They will test everything and anything that has to do with my immune system. From there, really depends on the results. If my levels come back elevated, then we will proceed with the steroid cocktail. I will still have to do lovenox injections, only I will start them on cycle day 6 along with baby aspirin.
IF
these results come back negative, and my immunity is fine, then we will have to start looking into IVF. That way they can take a few eggs, study them to make sure they are viable before injecting the lab created embryo back in me. I really do not want to go down this route - since it's super expensive....but if I have no other choice, then so be it. It's what we will do. But I am praying that my answer will fall with the NK Cells and that we can cure this and move on naturally.
In the meantime, I am just going to take this little break I have from the baby making nonsense and get my mind, body and soul back on track. I really could use the break, even though I want to just go-go-go all of the time. Now I am being forced to wait...so might as well take advantage of it.
I played powerball for the 500 Mil jackpot. I figure, my odds that all of this going on with me is 1 in every 100 women. So why can't I be 1 in 292 million for the lucky numbers?! haha! ;)
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