Rocky Week!!!

Well I just went through one hellish week! It all started on Tuesday when I went to the bathroom to put in my afternoon does of progesterone. When I pulled my pants down I noticed I had red blood all over my pad! Yes, bright red blood. I thought - game over. Instantly I panicked and since I was at work, gathered my things and headed straight to the ER. I tried to remain calm, but I just knew this wasn't good. Not that the ER could really do anything for me at that point - but I just needed to know the status of the baby. Was it still there, at this point they could see if it had a heartbeat or not. That would at least tell me all I needed to know.

  So I arrived and in no time, was in a room. They took my vitals/blood and set me up for an ultrasound. There I saw the most beautiful thing I ever could see. My baby. With a heartbeat of 124!!!

I couldn't believe my eyes! I was expecting to see nothing - and there it is!! There was no signs of bleeding in my uterus or anywhere else for that matter. Everything looked great! I was so relieved but knew I am far from out of the woods. But we were still on base as my husband put it!! Baby measured 6 weeks 5days! Right on point!

 So after I left the ER I went home and took a few days off of work. I needed serious bedrest and just time to chill. My boss is pretty spectacular and very understanding of my situation, so he gave me no issues. I spoke with my REI and she believes that the progesterone suppositories are irritating my cervix which caused the bleeding. The bleeding only lasted a few hours and then stopped. But I am still brown spotting so we need to do something about these suppositories. 

  Thursday (yesterday) we had a follow-up appt with my REI. My husband got to come this time so he could see/hear the heartbeat. We went in and there it was! Beating ever so fast at 167! In two days it went from 124 to 167! I kind of got worried like, is that normal for it to increase that fast?? But the doc told me that it's a good, strong heartbeat. So I will take it! haha! 

  Afterwards we discussed the progesterone dilemma. She suggested I could take progesterone shots, which are insanely painful but obviously wouldn't cause me cervical irritation. I agreed to that and we went and picked them up. When I got home I did some research on the shots and found out they aren't as great as they sound. Which clearly, they sound terrible - so imagine my surprise when I read that the side effects can be far worse than anything I was experiencing. It goes directly into your muscle, causes lumps, bruises, and can lead to bloodclotting, and more severe issues - even miscarriages. Um. NO THANKS. I will take my chances on the suppositories. So now I am finding a pharmacy that carries the older ones I was using that didn't mess me up the way these newer ones do. Hopefully it will help and I won't have to resort to these shots. We will see!

   Last night I had my very first dry heave attack. I was eating cereal and I suddenly felt the urge to throw up! I ran to the bathroom but nothing came out, thank god. But the nausea is definitely kicking in! I just hope things continue progressing as they are. I don't think I can take any more heartache. Especially having come so far now with things looking so positive. I am just sort of shutting my eyes and scared to open them because it doesn't seem real. But we take things day by day, as I've constantly been saying. One foot in front of the other. Tomorrow is a different day, but today, things are still ok. And that's what I will simply focus on! Keep your prayers going! Need every single bit!!

xo